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Grief Hi name is Adam and this is how Qi Treatments changed… SAVED!! My life. Well all the problems started for me when I lost my Dad to cancer in Oct 2003, my Dad was a very big loss to me, because he was also my best friend as well as a fantastic Father and we shared a lot of time and memories with each other. At this time in my life I was a young man of 18 I had just moved to Spain to start a new life away from the hectic way of living in the London suburbs. So just when my life seemed to be changing for the good my Mother had to tell me that my Father had 3 weeks to live, to hear that was the biggest loss and defeat I have ever experienced in my whole life, and still to this day. I left Spain that day and flew back to be with my him. At this time my Dad was in hospital, we as a family decided to take back my Dad back home to Egypt to spend the last few weeks with his family. My Dad deteriorated as the weeks passed and on the third week my Father passed away, I was there to see my Dads last breath. It still hurts really badly till this day, but what I say to myself is that he brought me into this world with my Mother and I was there to see him leave this world. After the funeral I went back to Spain for a few months and worked in the building trade, I saved a lot of money and from my savings I went travelling around the world for 6 months, I had the most amazing time of my life. I never forgot about my problems and for many nights I would cry myself to sleep. In Dec 04 I arrived back to England from my travels and I went back to the family house in Dagenham, Essex where my Mother and little Brother still lived. As soon as I got off that plane something didn’t feel right. I was living back in the house where I had grown up with Dad and there were so many memories, every time I would turn around there was something reminding me of my Dad and it would send me crazy. I just couldn't fall back into the English way of life, it was just to fast and compact for me now, remember I was away for 1year 2months relaxing on beaches in lovely hot weather and then I had to come back to place where the houses are all so cramped together and most of the people are so rude and serious. So from all the crazy and stressful times something had to give, and it did! The worst thing that really messed me up from all these problems was anxiety! Anxiety took a hold of my life without my say so and that was incredibly scary when it did take over my mind and body. It really did stop me from doing the most of easiest of things, things like going to far away from my house without a quick means to get home, going to nightclubs, even just thinking about going on aeroplanes and most things that I would normally take for granted. I felt disabled. Everyone around me was doing things with such ease, for me it was so mentally challenging and took a great deal of energy out of me. This went on for about 11 months, everyday waking up in pain, the only time anxiety couldn't get me was when I was asleep but as soon as my eyes would open and my brain started to click into gear the pain came straight back. The pain always came from my stomach which would last all day and if the anxiety would kick in, it would take over my mind. There's only so much a person can take and by the 6th month it was getting very close to the boarder line. Everyday was a struggle and so much energy was consumed from me which left me mentally and physically exhausted. By this stage I was feeling suicidal thoughts all the time, just thinking of ways to stop the pain that controlled my life and I could only think of one, and that was to end it. So I needed help or a miracle to get my life going my way again. My Sister Jane was a massive help to me, she got me in to counselling once a week. She was the only one who believed what I was going through and really helped me through the hard times. My family and close friends didn't believe me at first because when I told everyone that I was ill they couldn't physically see the change in my health so they didn't believe or understand that I had a mental health problem. My friend Dennis had organised a lads day out to Excel in Docklands, there was a beer festival going on. My mates and I decided to go down there by train, on the train I was feeling a bit of anxiety, but apart from that I was okay that day. We got in there and had a fantastic day, us boys were in our element the place was full of gorgeous women; you could play football and see top of the range cars, what else does a lad of 20 need. After I had looked and walked around the place and chatted up a few of the models and got a few numbers I noticed a little stall, the stall was the same as any other but it attracted my attention by the noise coming from the man performing what looked like a massage on a person laying down. After a few minutes of standing there watching my mates called me and told me to come and catch them up, so I left the stall and caught up with them. As I was walking around I couldn't stop thinking about the stall. After an hour of walking around again! We came across the stall and this time I went right to the front to see what was happening. (This is the weird part on what happen that day and I swear its true).I was just standing there in a group of 20 people watching and a woman with blond hair and a strange accent which I thought could be South African came up to me from out the crowd and said out from no where " you are not very well" and to hear that was very mind blowing, so I explained what I had been going through and we talked for a bit and she told all about Qi Treatments and how the masters put positive energy into you. At the end of the conversation I asked her how she knew that I was ill she replied "I can tell by your eyes that your energy is very low". I took in all of the information, but it was strange for me that I looked perfectly fine and still the woman knew I had something wrong with me. She gave me some info and cards, I said my thanks and I promised that I would come for a Qi Treatment.
Before Innersound my life was going down the pan, now I feel like I am starting afresh with such hope and a healthy body. I’ve just quit my full time job because I’m moving to Canada on a 1 year working visa. The travelling life is the way to go for me it’s the only time when I really feel free, and like a bird I need to spread my wings. Life is short so make the most of it! Adam 21, London |
